♥ It's The Climb ♥

Thursday, August 14, 2008 @ 8/14/2008 07:20:00 PM

ok..MAJOR things had happen 2 me these last few weeks..and with all tat probs and the reasults 4 the oritorical compe still hvnt released yet..it doesn't make things any better..today, i had chem remedial. it was soo bad tat i regreted goin thr..i dunno why im always the one she's targeting at. she see's me at every wrong move i make and she make such a big fuss.

nobody told me tat yawning was against the law.

and 4 as long i had lived, it nvr had been.

so wats her prob?

missed two 913 bus wen goin back home. i feel so invisible. the driver was not even looking at the bus stop and jus drove off. the 1st driver was a chinese guy and the 2nd one was and indian driver. doesn't it make u feel ur not improtant?..i want 2 be angry but i wont. i noe im not important but it doesnt give u the rite 2 make feel extra unimportant.

im warning you! stay back punk!

sir has a prob. he's dissapointed wif himself. he's not the only one. want 2 feel pity but i cant cuz i nvr felt his kind of hurt b4. heart-broken, u see. well, all i can say is, good lucky sir.

If Only We Could See Each Other Again..
Sunday, August 03, 2008 @ 8/03/2008 04:05:00 AM

i fought wif my mother last 2 days..i went to farahin's house w/o her permission..well she didnt ask my permission she could fight wif her mum in front of me..so i dun feel guilty..i dun even care..

friday got training..didnt want 2 go..but i didnt want 2 stay at home either..so i went..ok larh..i nvr told u b4 but Hafieqa, Insyirah, Aloysious, Fadhli and Sameul..( or watever the fuck their names are)..are the first 5 to become cadet ICs..well 3 more to go..if i dun get chosen, i understand. im just a pathetic loser hu does not noe hu she is. i really want 2 be a IC. i wuld really be honoured. well i guess sir doesnt like me as much as my bro..maybe i shuld not hv taken up ncdcc..maybe i shuld hv taken volleyball..i dun seem 2 fit anywer. not at home. not at sch. not at ncdcc.

it seems worth it at tution 2day. i met him. he hasnt changed much. but i least he recognised me. and he smiled. smiled at me. but mother came so i had no chance to talk to him. cursing wuld nvr be any good. so i kept quiet and bit my lips. its like we are forbidden to see each other. and juz now was a mistake. but i saw him. and he saw me. sigh.

i dunno wat 2 do wif myself. somtimes i would look down from my window and see emptiness. nothing. thinking tat i could feel up tat emptiness. but something else was saying tat i wuld not change anything. i wuld make it more emptier. i wuld think its impossible. but it seems so real.

really no mood...
Friday, August 01, 2008 @ 8/01/2008 12:30:00 PM

i nid to talk 2 sombody..i cant blog it cuz ALOT of ppl would get offended..i sooo dont want 2 cause anymore trouble...all i can say is..im angry at all gender, all age groups and all races..and lastly, im angry with myself..i cant make them be happy with me..i dunno wats wrong wif me..WADS THE HELL WRONG WIF ME?!..WAD DOES HE WAN ME 2 DO?..dun pass all my test? skip every lesson? what do you want? WHAT?! y am i so unlucky?..y does everyone hates me so much?..why? is this my fault?..dun wan 2 talk bout it anymore..