♥ It's The Climb ♥

I should be sleeping.
Thursday, October 28, 2010 @ 10/28/2010 02:50:00 AM

Oh, life.

I have just finish the proposal. Ugh.

I am super sleepy but I want to blog.

I need to say that I am really confused and I do not know who to turn to.

I have told my parents but there is only so much they could do.

I am extremely worried. Really.

About life. About my future. About my well-beling.

Everything.

I need to get a grip on my life. But I don't know how to.

I don't know how much I can hold on.

I just don't know what to do.

Tomorrow is the last day of school. And tomorrow is the day when the get our report book. And also whether we retain or not. Well, I obviously am going to retain. And Mum and Dad will have to go to the parents-teacher meeting on Saturday. I just don't want to be retained. Please. My Mum said, "Those successful people before faced many more failures than you did. You cannot just give up just because of a Secondary 3 EOY." I feel like crying then. But I didn't.

I need comfort. I need somebody to be wtih me. I need somebody to tell me everything's going to be okay eventhough you are not sure. I need reasurrance. I need people to stop judging me. I need people to stop comparing.

I need love.

Thank you very much.
Though I know I will never get it.
It hurts to know that. It really does.
But, I will never know what to do about it.
I don't know what to do.

I am sleepy. Damn sleepy.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010 @ 10/20/2010 10:40:00 PM

How do you remove the eye bags and dark circles? Ugh.

My Mum says to sleep early and wake up early. Yeah, like that is ever possible. There is just too much things to be done. Especially these holiday times. God, you know what I want to do? I want to wake up from my 8 perfect hours of sleep and thenset the bathtub ready and sleep for another 8 hours. Then I will wake up, light up scented candles and I will lie down. When I am hungry, my menu will be salads, fresh fruits and drink milk and fruit juices. Then at night, I will switch on the radio to 98.7FM and lie down until I sleep. Omg, perfect day. I seriously need a break.

The school has an issue with students using Facebook. Oh, pity those who got caught for things they did on Facebook, which seemed inappropriate to them. But obviously, not to us. I have to be more careful when updating my status and indirectly, blogging too. Cause Facebook links my blog. Maybe I will remove the link. But what's the point? That only show that we are doing what they want us to do. Oh, what am I afraid of? I have nothing to hide. This is my opinion and besides, I do not mention any specific names. Unless it is for something good. But morning assembly was really.. unnecessary. But I see their point of view. They are afraid the public would see the school as an undisciplined school. They do not want our immature actions to affect the name of the school. But really? Saying the whole upper sec and lower sec thing? That is a wee bit out of line. But, who am I to say this things? You decide.

Oh, got back the papers today. And yeah, the results are unexpected. except for Pure Physics. I just passed the paper, 50/100. But obviously I will fail for the overall results. Yeah, so that leaves me with English and Malay as the confirmed passes. The only hope left is Emaths. Omg, if the overall mark is a fail, I would retain? The rest of the subjects cannot be depended. So yeah. Oh God. Please pass my Emaths.

Now I have to make a decision of which subject to keep and which to drop.

I am such at a lost.

Plain stupidity.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010 @ 10/19/2010 11:07:00 PM

LMAO-ING.

I am hungry.
@ 10/19/2010 09:49:00 PM

Grrrrrr, goes my stomach.

I have not eaten a proper meal in 4 days.

Omg, I think I will cook Maggi later.

Ugh, shut up stomach.

Okay, today is 49% fucked up, 49% super damn fun and 2% plain weird.

Woke up. Then tried calling somebody who slept like Sleeping Beauty. God, I gave up after the 5th call? Then, went to school for the planning. And I swear it was quite dissapointing. But that's life, I guess. So yeah, I will have to edit the proposal again. (For like the 100th time?) God. After that went to KFC. And that made the fun part of my day. Then went to Nadd's house to give the form. Then went back to school to update the notice board. (which needs to be edited tomorrow anyways). Then, went home like finally. I was so hungry. But I didn't want to eat home food. Actually, I brought a banana to school. But some hot guy ate it. So nevermind. Yeah, some hot guy, XD. Kay, peace. Then, never ate anything until now. Omg. Then slept until dad woke me up at 2.30pm. Need go collect new passport, which is at 4. But yeah, the thing is all the way at Kalang. So I texted the most lamest teacher in the world and Istiana the whole way. And I realised Istiana and I are in some sort of trouble. Yeahh, but I think we are going to be okay. I hope. Then, reached the ICA building, took the queue number and entered the room filled with people. And I mean freaking full of people. Although the person say those with appointment will get to go earlier, I don't think this thing will last less then 1 hour. Then Dad found a seat and I sat on the carpet floor next to him cause I didn't want to sit on the chair. Yes, I know I am weird. Then, not even Istiana's reply could beat the queue number. Cause as soon as I sat, my number came. Haha, damn fast mannn. I was like practically laughing at the people who didn't make appointment! Then, took my new passport and off we go. We bought Ice cream and it was like raining? Haha. Then went to a Macdonald's near Mum's workplace. No, I didn't eat anything there. Then Istiana taught me Spanish, but I obviously failed cause i suckk. Haha. Yes, still texting her. Then, waited until Mum came and then we took a bus to some carpark. And then took the car back home. Then my hp batt low so I off it. And went to sleep until reached home. Until now. See, 49% fucked up, 49% damn funny, 2% plain weird.

Oh that same hot guy who ate my banana took my handphone and edited my note.

I had a, "Just hold on. He's out there somewhere".

And he added (without me realising), "Maybe he is closer than you think."

Haha, he and his nonsense. Yeah, so after I realised, it made me think.

What did he mean by that?

Okay, today I did enough thinking. And not enough eating.

Okay, Maggi time. Oh, too bad, no cheesecake for you Khalida.

I do not want to choose.
Monday, October 18, 2010 @ 10/18/2010 11:29:00 PM

I am super duper lazy to update. But I have to say this now beacuse this is super duper imporatant. The PDS cometition is postponed to 19 Nov! And that is the last day of the OBS! IKR? If this date is confrimed, then I will either say goodbye to OBS or PDS. And it is obvious to which I am choosing. But that will make me extremely sad. Cause the next opportunity for it will be such a long time. Let's just pray that they will extend it to December. Please.

Okay, that is all. The rest will be updated tomorrow. I hope. If I am not too busy. Or lazy.

Peace be upon you, people. Oh, and please pray for me. Thank you.

Enjoy it while it last.
Sunday, October 17, 2010 @ 10/17/2010 05:20:00 PM

You can see my heart beating.

You can see it through my chest.

Finally, the 3 day camwhore project is done. As usual, I uploaded the best on Facebook and made it my profile picture. And yes, if you were wondering, I was wearing eyeliner and a bit of foundation. Not proud, but I was so bored and in the mood, you know. I didn't realised how big my eyes were until I uploaded it in the computer. Whoa, and with the eyeliner, it makes it bigger. Oh, my hair was so well-behaved. Haha. Anyways, I was busy the past three days with the editing and uploading stuffs. But I had tution and other planning stuffs. God, I am freaking busy in November. And from my planning, today is my last free day. From tomorrow onwards, my days are going to be filled with texting and going out there, somewhere. The next big event coming up is the PDS competition. Ugh, talk about nervous much? Frankly, I don't really care if we win. I just want everybody to give their all in this and yes, I want the badge. Omg, I just hope I don't mess up. Next, is the NCDCC camp. And this really needs a lot of planning. Then, Malay O Level. Yes, I am extremely worried. Then, it is the OBS trip with Istiana. Then, a super short 5 day break. Then, I am off to Hong Kong with Nadd and the NCD people. And when this is all over, it will already be 3 December! God, just like that, 1 month is over. And December will be over, and on 3 January, I will go back to school as a Sec 4 and starting to focus on the main O Levels. Omg, life is passing by so fast. I just hope I can continue holding on with this speed. Whoa, okay let's take a minute to breathe.

Okay, my maid is going home. She said she misses her family. And let me tell you, she is going to be quite rich. Because really, compared to her other people back at Indonesia, she is quite rich. But of course, there is a price to pay for wealth. And that is why she can't take it any longer and wants to go back home. Sigh, can't blame her ah. Yeah, so I am going to get a new maid. But I heard there is a problem. The new maid is not coming as soon as the current one is leaving. So there might a period of time where my house is messed-up. But still, if I am hungry, there's always good old Maggi. Or I can always eat out. Peace. Oh, and with the decision of hiring a new maid, that means I won't have my room. So, goodbye renovation. Sad face. Yeah obviously I am dissapointed. But can't say I didn't expected it because it was too good to be true. So yeah.

Okay I am done. This might be the last post until the end of the Hong Kong trip. So, goodbye for now. But, do check out for updates on Facebook from other people. I might not have the time, doesn't mean they dont. Peace.

Click, click, click, flash.
@ 10/17/2010 03:06:00 PM

CAMWHORE BEYBEH!

Been such a long time since my last.

Just testing my camera phone.

Besides, my hair was in the mood.

And I need a new Facebook profile picture.

Still haven't decided which.

Haha, peace.

Yeah, there is something about it.
Friday, October 15, 2010 @ 10/15/2010 06:42:00 PM

Something Bout Love - David Archuleta

Every night it's all the same
You're frozen by the phone
You wait, something's changed
You blame yourself every day
You'd do it again
Every night

There's something 'bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free
There's something 'bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe

When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh...
But don't give up
There's something 'bout love

When you were young
Scared of the night
Waiting for love to come along
And make it right
Your day will come, the past is gone
So take your time
And live and let live

There's something 'bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free
There's something 'bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe

When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh...
But don't give up
There's something 'bout love

Don't fight
Don't hide
Those stars in your eyes (in your eyes)
Let em' shine tonight
Let em' shine tonight

Hang on
Hang in
For the ride of your life
It's gonna be alright
Hold on tight

There's something 'bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
There's something 'bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free
There's something 'bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe

When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees (to your knees)
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh...
But don't give up
There's something 'bout love

Whoa oh oh oh..
Set's you free
There's something bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain

Funny Friday.
@ 10/15/2010 05:24:00 PM

Omg, this convo made me LMAO.

Haha, avatar state.

Sir Aidil, Sir Aidil.

Went to school as per normal ah. Although first paper is POA, I think, I came to school for morning assembly. People got really irritating when they kept asking why did I come to school early eventhough I had no early morning paper. Sheesh. Why can't I? So, I did file duty as per normal. Then when assembly finished, May and I ate breakfast at KFC. Hahaha, omg did you know May had never eaten breakfast at KFC? God, and when she took the first bite to schoolof the Original Twister, she said, "I am now in heaven". Or something like that. Hahah! Then we went back to school. Then, 'revised' for Physics a little bit. Then, I sort of slept? Cause too sleepy with the KFC breakfast. Can't blame me. Then woke up and the invigilator soon came afterwards. Physics paper was hmm, ..okay. Though the MCQ was easy, But as usual, I am expecting to fail this paper. Peace. Yeah, then it was over. And so was the EOY. Haha, finaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaly.

Oh, many classes got their class photos. 3 Respect is yet to get ours. Omg, I am super excited about this year's photos! And I think I bought all the 3 photos. Hahaha, but of course the smaller version. Omg, Mr E said he has heard nothing about the class photos. I hope we can get them next week. Ohhhhh, saw a class's photos on Facebook just now. :\ Goddddd, I want the class photos.

Oh, I am done. And now bored to death. Okay, maybe I am going to start reading a book.

Peace be upon you, people.

Advertisement bear.
Thursday, October 14, 2010 @ 10/14/2010 06:54:00 PM

Whoa, hoax much?
Heard of the Ulu Pandan bear? Sure you have. Have you heard it was a hoax?. Yeah, it was. Gosh, that is the dumbest thing I have ever heard. If you have not seen the video. Click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1oMOC-lGvBk. Apparently, it was meant for an advertisement for a shaver. A freaking shaver. And the advertisement isn't that good either. Haven't seen the advertisement? Click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4MQePAbBk5M. But it is like effing dumb ah. Sheesh. Things people do to attract attention. Really, you shoudn't joke about this type of things.
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Anyways, the 33 Chilean miners all got rescued today. I know right? Like finally after 2 months. Did you know that NASA was involved in the digging of the way out? OMG, salute these miners. They have so much endurance and patience to continue living even if they could not see the sunlight for nearly 2 months. And now they can finally be with their family and other loved ones. Now, I am wondering if they would go back to worker as miners? I am sure most of them will keep their mining job because most probably that is the only source of money. But would any them think of quitting their job? Hmm.

Oh, today is the last day of the Commonwealth Games. Don't forget watch the closing ceremony at 9.30pm on Channel 5! I think so far Singapore has 10 gold, 10 silver, 9 bronze. Which is obviously awesome. Go Team Singapore! :D

Interesting much?
@ 10/14/2010 05:00:00 PM

Peace. ^^
Today was quite interesting. Started off with morning assembly when Mr V was in his scolding mood. Nahh, I am too good to get scolded. Peace. But those who were not, got it real hard. I do not want to sound mean. But you should already be thick-skinned enough to take these types of scoldings. Yeah, he shouted in front of everybody. But, even if you get too emotional, you shouldn't do it it in front of everybody. You got it through the scolding without tearing. Thats good for you. But you just look real pathetic when it is clearly your fault and you get emotional. Especially if your an example to the whole school. So yeah.

Then, first paper was Emaths Paper 2. And omg. I am really surprised on how well I could do it. Though, typical me. I cannot finish the paper. But still, the maximum I can get for Paper 2 is 91%. Which superbly awesome for someone of my maths standard. And this is only if I did not do any careless mistakes. Oh, you know me, I always have mistakes that are oh so careless. There is a list Mr C put up on the notice board to show approximately how much we need to score to pass Emaths. And I had a 68 (I think) beside my name. According to JX, I need to score that to pass. Hmm, I think I can do more than pass. Well, we'll see when the results come out. Oh, and there was this graph question. And I forgot to bring my curve ruler. Haha. But nvm, my hand is awesome because it can draw free hand. Peace. Then there was a question that requires us to draw a line that intersects the curve and find the coordinates of the intersections. But omg, I thought my brain stopped functioning anymore because the line doesn't intersect the curve at all! I started panicking ah cause I was so confident in doing the graph. Then XL, called for the teacher and she asked about the graph question. I was like omg, I am not the only one noticing this mistake. Then I carried on doing the questions that i skipped. Then Mr C and Mr Y came and look at XL's paper, then discuss, then look again. Then they changed the question. Omg! I was like so annoyed! After I used the new equation, the curves intersects and that leaves me with so little time to finish the rest of the paper. The time wasted on finding the intersection with the wrong equation could be used to do the other questions. Gosh, I was so angry. But nvm, I only lost 9 marks because of the time. Let's just pray I can pull this one.

Then it was break. Went to eat before the Chem paper. Saw Ray with his friends at the canteen. Then, I started laughing about his hair. (Peace.^^) When he saw me, I pretended to cut my hair with my fingers and he gave me that -_________- face. Hahaha! Too cute. Oh, then just now I went to Facebook and he wrote on my wall. Hahahaha! Made my day so much.

Yeah, haha. Awesome right? Anyways, did the Chem paper. And yes, I am going to fail. But that is not the main point. The interesting part was when Mr G was collecting the papers. It was super troublesome cause we had the OTAS, paper 1, paper 2 and the writing papers. Mr G had to collect the OTAS, paper 2 and the writing paper. And then count each stack to make sure everybody passed up. He counted the OTAS first. That part was okay. Then came the writing paper. Mr G was like struggling cause he kept counting wrong. By like the third count, everybody was like smiling at each other because we knew the pressure was on Mr G. God, it was funny to see him count. No offence. But yeah. Then when he finally finish couting and gave the final tap on the stack of writing papers, you could practically hear the sigh of relief from everbody. Cause they thought they could be released and go home, like finally. But I knew better, cause there was still the paper 2 to count! Haha, when Mr G took the paper 2, everybody was like, ahhhhhh! Hahaha, you could see it in everybody's face. But the good thing was, nobody was angry. We were like smiling and just waiting for him to finish counting. God, I wanted to laugh at the reactions. Then, when he finish counting the paper 2, he said, "Okay, hand up the unused papers." but what most people heard was, "Okay, you can stand up and go" Hahaha! Freaking funny! Cause most people started standing up and Mr G was like "Eh! No, unused papers to the front. You are not allowed to go untill the papers are collected." OMG. I wanted to laugh sehh. Haha, pity Mr G. Peace. ^^

Mann, today is something. Okay maybe you guys had interesting-er (Okay, my English is just awesome) days. But it has been quite dull lately, expecially during the exam week. And little incidents like this just makes your day so much better. Tomorrow is Physics. Last paper and it starts late cause POA is the first paper. I am still wondering whether to go school as per normal or late. Oh, and Veronica has a free day tomorrow. Haha, awesome ttm cause she has a super long weekend, 5 days sehh. So yeah. Will update more tomorrow. If I have the time, or the mood.

Peace. Be upon you. ^^

Two more days of endurance.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010 @ 10/13/2010 07:57:00 PM

Ohh, Emaths finally loves me?
I find it easy. Max 85% for Paper 1. We'll see what happens for Paper 2 tomorrow.
I didn't do essay on Japanese for History. Cause I never memorised it. :P So I only did the Weimar Government essay and all the SBQ except the second inference question. The one about the German car. Cause I didn't understand anything about the freaking poster. Yeah, so that will leave me with a maximum of 31/50. And everybody knows you can never score full marks for essay or SBQ. So I can only afford to lose 6 marks to get a pass. There goes my humanities cause I can never count on Social Studies. Peace.

Eh! Bruno Mars's song is AWESOME. Haha, been hearing this song on the radio for quite a awhile now. I finally got rid of my laziness and find the music video on Youtube. And omg, the video is freaking cool! Haha, too cute.

Today, went to Yishun with May. Haha, awesome time. Oh, and I absolutely love the Popular shop at NorthPoint! Eh, sorry ah. I know I have not been out for awhile and yes, I have never went to Yishun's Popular store. We also check out the *ehem* store at Chong Pang. Muahaha, I want to buy two can? Someone belanje me $180. I promise I won't return to you. Haha! Sorry ah Khalida. I didn't invite you come along. Cause it was sort of a spontaneous decision to go Chong Pang. Maybe after exams kay? Kite ajak Zaidiah sekali ah. :D

Okay off to tution people. Will update if anything new happens. Peace be upon you people. :D

Jyeah right.
@ 10/13/2010 06:56:00 PM

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are.

Patience Is Tested To The Core.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010 @ 10/12/2010 08:33:00 PM

End Of Year Examminations Week

aka The Week Of Pure Torture

Or a way to gauge how much have you learnt this year.

I bet most of you would go for the second one, haha.

Here's my timetable:

Monday - Social Studies & Pure Biology

Tuesday - Additional Mathematics

Wednesday - History & Elementary Mathematics Paper 2

Thursday - Elementary Mathematics Paper 1 & Pure Chemistry

Friday - Pure Physics

I am supposed to be studying for History but nooooo. Frankly, some part of me is not worried. Not because I am confident of getting high results. But because I don't seem to care what results I get anymore. I am so used to failing so much that it doesn't affect my moral being anymore. I used to be the person who would not settle for a pass. But now, things have changed. Getting a pass is almost impossible for anything. But I am terrified of retaining, though. I cannot seem to get a grip of my life. Everybody is telling me what to do. Once I have made up my mind, somebody comes up and tell me my decision is not the best. I don't know what to think anymore. I used to know what my future is. Now, things are all in a mess and a blur. I am taking each day as it goes by, not really realising the mistakes I will make along the way. Once I realised, the damage is already done and I cannot turn back time. I just wish time will just slow down.

Today, I went back home (yes, by walking all the way) from Amaths. Maximum marks is 34/100. But this is already quite high for my standards. So yeah. After eating lunch, I slept all the until 6.30pm. So, I am going to sleep super duper late today. Kinda good because I have to study for history anyways. So yeah. Okay, I have nothing else. You guys better run along and carry on with your life. Because 2mins of it have just been wasted by reading this post.

"I realised I may not have the looks. I may not have the talent. And, I may not have the brains. But I have my whole heart to offer to you. And if you don't think that is enough for you, I guess it is better this way. Though, I know this sacrifice hurts me inside more than it does to you."

I wish you would.
Monday, October 04, 2010 @ 10/04/2010 11:20:00 PM

When You Look Me In The Eyes

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realise,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that its forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go
Cause when you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

Perfect Excuse.
@ 10/04/2010 11:03:00 PM

Go away if you think I deserve him.

Because I definately don't.

She can deal with stress and carry heavy burdens. She smiles when she feels like screaming and she sings when she feels like crying. She cries when she's happy and laughs when she's afraid. Her love is unconditional. There is only one thing wrong with her.

She forgets what she's worth.

This thing is so..sigh. I feel so down lately. And you know, I have found a new habit. I would walk home all the way from school when I feel like being alone. Buses are becoming too crowded lately. I need my space and lately, most of the time. I do not know why but walking seems to be so nice. And really, my hatred for walking is gone. I am not forcing myself to walk because to slim down or something. But, really. I am surprise at myself too. Huh, weird much. But I have always known that I could walk the whole way. Just didn't know I had the patience. Walking helps me to think, I think. And lately, I have been thinking about somethings.

I don't know what to feel anymore. I don't want to be a disturbance in somebody's love. He seems happy with her and it is obvious she likes him. Maybe this is really the right thing to do. Besides, she saw him first. He doesn't seem to be affected at all. In a way, I am happy for him to be moving on fast. Maybe a little bit too fast. But, he deserves somebody better. Somebody other than me. Oh well, what was I thinking anyway. I can't face him anymore. It just makes me want to cry. But, I want to see him. Cause I like the way my stomach flutters.

Somebody who cries is not weak. They have just been strong for too long.