There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna have an uphill battle. Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waiting on the other side. It's


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If Only We Could See Each Other Again..
Sunday, August 03, 2008 @ 8/03/2008 04:05:00 AM
i fought wif my mother last 2 days..i went to farahin's house w/o her permission..well she didnt ask my permission she could fight wif her mum in front of me..so i dun feel guilty..i dun even care..

friday got training..didnt want 2 go..but i didnt want 2 stay at home either..so i went..ok larh..i nvr told u b4 but Hafieqa, Insyirah, Aloysious, Fadhli and Sameul..( or watever the fuck their names are)..are the first 5 to become cadet ICs..well 3 more to go..if i dun get chosen, i understand. im just a pathetic loser hu does not noe hu she is. i really want 2 be a IC. i wuld really be honoured. well i guess sir doesnt like me as much as my bro..maybe i shuld not hv taken up ncdcc..maybe i shuld hv taken volleyball..i dun seem 2 fit anywer. not at home. not at sch. not at ncdcc.

it seems worth it at tution 2day. i met him. he hasnt changed much. but i least he recognised me. and he smiled. smiled at me. but mother came so i had no chance to talk to him. cursing wuld nvr be any good. so i kept quiet and bit my lips. its like we are forbidden to see each other. and juz now was a mistake. but i saw him. and he saw me. sigh.

i dunno wat 2 do wif myself. somtimes i would look down from my window and see emptiness. nothing. thinking tat i could feel up tat emptiness. but something else was saying tat i wuld not change anything. i wuld make it more emptier. i wuld think its impossible. but it seems so real.