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Thursday, September 11, 2008 @ 9/11/2008 07:46:00 PM

very long nvr post. sori guys. hate myself for being stupid.

thx jiaen for cheering me up. love you always sweetie.

FYI. i joined interact club. quite fun. b4 the hols. they had the 8th (i think) installation. helped the teacher. very fun. 2morrow oso nid 2 see the person at the hall at 11am for the wat2 interview. interact club members were chosen to see. big bro oso has 2 go. he went 2 Sarawak.big bro got blog oredi. wahh he like everyday post blog w/o fail one. i help him choose blog skin.nice rite?

actually 2morrow oso got interact club thing @ 5pm to 6pm. storytelling to kindergardeners but i got ncdcc and summore i getting badge.would love 2 go. love little kids.they're so innocent and cute. 2bad cuz they'll b nomore events until next year. 2 bad. :(

wahh lim min very angry de. i dun blame her. i am very angry too at Mr Ahmad. i thnk most of you would noe y. but if u dont. i'll tell. u noe now Malaysia is hving some political porblems. Mr Ahmad, one of them, said tat chinese malaysians are outsiders and do not deserve wat the malays are suppose 2 hv in Malaysia. i do not know the real story but watever it is he should not hv said tat. although i am a malay singaporean, i totally agree wif lim min (chinese malaysian). but lim min sweetie, pls ease up on the vocab.

i joined the Step-Up program too. it is a program wer teenagers can feel a sense of belonging and they can learn while having fun. Jason is the best friend u can ever have! i love being a part of it. earlier this tues, we played 'trust fall'. it was scary at first but it was an experience im nvr gonna forget.

today my, naim's and izian's face was 'beautifully' decorated by the rest of the step-up members wif orange paint. wen they finish messing our face., razak helped naim clean his face while zai helped izian. i was puposely wasnt given a partner so i could clean by myself. in the end, i and izian's face could remove it but still got a bit of paint. naim's was horrible.

jason said we could not do anithing by ouselves. the example is me. i cant see my own face so it was still dirty. he also said tat we somtimes hv to rely on our friends. but we hv 2 choose the friends. like razak who gave up washing naim's face wen the paint dried and was hard to remove. those type of friends are very unreliable. izian's face was ok. but jason said. zai tried her best to remove the paint and tat is wat every friend must do: try their very best. the lesson is about choosing the correct friends and trusting them.

The good news is..
gonna get all the ncdcc badges tommorow.cant wait. but the thing is. we nid to wear full-u wif beret. wahh i dunno wad 2 do. i think dtarch is gonna finish. then wif big bro using.i du ting thr'll be anymore 4 me.maybe he'll buy at the 24 hour shop.love those shops.always saves my life.

The bad news is..
fought wif my mum again.she doesnt trust me. i want 2 show 2 her tat i can be independant. guess everything i do is wrong on her eyes. i dont know wen is this gonna end. y must she be so good to big bro but not 2 me? maybe its me. i know. im stupid. wats the point of making them proud wen they r nvr gonna notice. its my fault. everything is. i dont see a reason 2 live anymore.

hate myself.want to talk to somebody.i dont know what to do. i sound pathetic.ignore me.