Monday, August 31, 2009 @ 8/31/2009 09:43:00 PM
TO MY EVER-SO-LOVING ABANG SUHAIRI,

I AM SERIOUSLY SORRY FOR CALLING YOU SHORT. ALTHOUGH, I DID NOT DIRECTLY SAY IT. YOU SOMEHOW FELT OFFENDED BY MY WORDS AND I WANT TO TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY OF IT. I HAD NEVER THOUGHT THAT YOU WERE SHORT BECAUSE FIRSTLY, YOU ARE NOT. SECONDLY, WHY SHOULD ANYONE CARE ABOUT THE HEIGHT OF A PERSON. WHAT MATTERS IS INSIDE. AND I THINK YOU ARE THE GREATEST ABANG ANYBODY COULD EVER HAVE. (ok besides my real abang, but that is different) BECAUSE YOU HAVE HELPED ME GO THROUGH LIFE WITH A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE AND MAKE THE WORLD SEEM SO MUCH BRIGHTER EVEN WHEN IM DOWN. SO ALL I WANT TO SAY IS THAT I HOPE YOU CAN ACCEPT MY SINCEREST APOLOGY. IF I HAD A PHONE I WOULD HAVE CALLED YOU, BUT I DONT. AND ASKING SOMEBODY ELSE TO APOLOGIZE ON MY BEHALF IS JUST PLAIN MEAN.

FROM YOUR EVER-SO-GUILTY ADEK SOFIA.

@ 8/31/2009 07:09:00 PM
(this post has colours because after i posted it. then only i could change the colour and font. but somehow when i press the font size button, i cannot change it. so i guess it was really my com all along. and i am lazy to update this post so i will leave it as it is)

been a long time. the thing was that i was waiting for the format to be able to change again. but unfortunately, it hasn't changed. although, suhairi and evg ncdcc could. so is it my com's fault? maybe.

what freaking part of 'I cannot change the format of my posts because of the stupid blogger.com.' don't you people not freaking understand?! i dont know that if you guys could change your font size of colour or what freaking ever, but i freaking cant. if i could, would you be reading my dull and boring post while straining your eyes because its too small? my point is stated.

im sorry. its not because i hate you guys. actually, it is. No luhh. its because of the blogger.com thingy. or is it my com? either way, i hate it. all of my rainbow-ness is gone and i cant change the fonts. now old people cannot read my blog. because shockingly, they do. no offence to all you old people out there, but seriously. and videos and pics cannot be uploaded, which makes my blog a million times more BORING! not that i have any pics, but if i do i couldnt because of this freaking problem. but i do have videos, from Youtube that is.

look up Shane Dawson on Youtube. you might find him a little horny and vulgar. ok LOL, understatement of the year. Hes VERY horny and vulgar. but hes funny. i just skip the disgusting parts. there is one video i wanted to share with you guys but i forgot that i cant. so it made me fucked up. haha, learn it from Shane. very addictive, you know. and he's actually kinda cute, espes the hair. so instead of posting it here, i have to give you the link, and you guys have to go to the webby...

Everything is Gonna Be Okay
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3IrHee0ih_4&annotation_id=annotation_840359&feature=iv

enough video watching? you should be. the video is awesome right? so the thing im saying is that although your life seems like a huge pile of useless waste, (i had to say useless cause waste can be useful like for manures) everything's gonna be okay. im always here for you people. but you have to make an appointment and im not free on Sundays after 5pm and Saturdays after 2pm. $5 will be charge for weekdays. LOL, joking luhh. you know me. ((:

speaking of im here for you guys, Suhairi is saying to everybody that i called him short. he even blogged about it. i should be honored but nooooooo, not today. so let me clear this fucked up shit (ooh, nice.) before everything gets too messy. i didnt call him short directly, for those who dont know my typing skills are TERRIBLE. partly due to the fact that my keyboards are like freaking hard to press. seriously, its not like yours. you have to put in extra effort to type. so my fingers get tired easily and this happen during msn. so people would usually type and straight away press enter without checking thier spelling or whatever shit. (i mean, who does?) i was suppose to type, "ever-so-loving" but i wrote "ever-so-long" (I know! this was my fault) but he was 'SORT OF offended', and said i was 'shooting his short-ness'. and it started from there. and, and, AND! to make up for my 'wrong doing', i tried to cheer him up by saying that i could name 1000 people who were shorter than him. then he was like, ok the first one better be who im thinking of. then i was like *insert person's name*. and i totally got that correct! and he still wrote that stuff about me in his blog. PFFT, evil. does my face look evil to you? No wait, wad type of question was that? OF COURSE NOT! have i ever done anything evil to you? OF COURSE NOT! (Khalida, you are not counted.)

HAHA, no luhh. i am so vulgar in this post. Blame on Shane Dawson. but seriously, I DID NOT CALL SUHAIRI SHORT! so anyways, if any feeling were hurt. i did not mean it. i just meant it as a joke. So yeah, because come on. I am not evil!

ok enough about suhairi. my life currently has been full of chatting and chatching up. today is the eve of teacher's day. and im so fucked up with *insert priamry school's name*. i couldnt even see my ex-teachers! they threw us away by 2pm and most of us just got there. very fucked up. then didnt get to see any teachers or pri school friends. excpt laila, seri, nadia, arveen and a few others. GOSH, afiq is like so HOT right now. cause he used to be so skinny and quiet and he went to school with a sleeveless shirt and yeah, imagine. haha, he saw me and i looked at him but didnt smile cause i taught he had forgoten me. but then he called back and said, " dah sombong eh sekarang" (or something like that) then i was like laughing and saying hi. brings back so many memories of him comparing test marks and most of the time i would win him. and he would like, ni confirm cheat. haha, ok enough.

and yeah, Farahin got ignored from *insert person's name*. she was like so desparate in getting the attention of *insert person's name*. HAHA, pure hilarious-ness! anyways, farahin, im just messing with you. you know me, i would hurt you cause I love you. ((: and besides, you still have Joe Jonas. He's not married yet. Unlike Kevin. Who made a girl's dreams shatter into a million pieces like a glass cup when it falls. from a table. Poetry is just not my thing.

Evergreen Sec teacher's day celebration was awesome. except for some of the singing part. and the Miley Cyrus wannabe. you know who you are. No offence, i dont hate Miley Cyrus, i just like to pick on her. because thats what celebrities are for right? anyways, the video was sweet and the Long Service Awards was totally awesome. i thought Mr Fathol was going to get at least a shoutout, but noooooo, he didnt get a fucking shit. HAHA, i wonder what he must be saying in his heart. anyways, each teacher got a fake rose, a CD (i saw one was a Minnie Mouse CD), a goodie bag(?) plus presents from their students. its awesome being teachers. and teachers are awesome. well, some.

and finally, can i say that Dzul is like the most irritating person i have ever met? Ouh yeah, its my blog. Of course i can. DZUL IS LIKE HE MOST IRRITATING PERSON I HAVE EVER MET?! oh-my-feaking- gosh uhhs, the power of Dzul's irritation causes severe brain damage, suicidal and self depression. Dont chat with him for more than 20 mins. I am warning you! Haha, but seriously, he's so fun to talk to. Doesn't make your night boring at all. LOL! that sounded wrong. Wait! what were you thinking of huh? you yellow minded people.

anyways, im done for the night. buh-bye. ((:

Friday, August 21, 2009 @ 8/21/2009 10:21:00 PM
I am a very happy Spartan.

Thursday, August 20, 2009 @ 8/20/2009 10:20:00 PM
i don't really have time to blog.
but yeah, sofia what.

life has been full of ups and downs.
but mostly ups. (((:
common tests are here.
cracking my freaking brain out.
today got chem test then yesterday night watching TV sia.
cool right me? but i think i can pass.
anyways, its hard to choose which subjects for sec 3.
i wan go art. but dad wants me to go triple.
Mr L said 'O' level art have to submit 8 boards of art pieces
LIKE FREAK RIGHT?

then Step-up is very fun nowadays
today's activity was like SUPERR meaningful that i cannt leave this out
Jason made us draw a perosn we would wish to be
(i drew a girl with a big heart on her shirt and long black hair with red higlights)
then we were told to sit in a circle and explain what we drew
i was like beside Khalida in the middle part.
then Jason started asking people to say somethig nice about the person they had drawn.
then wen it was my turn, i explained that i wanted to be a better and kinder person
thats why i dreww the big heart. then i say i also want to be a unique and interesting person
thats why i drew the long hair with red highlights.
then suddenly, Jason was like, "what?! that is so weird! who has red highlighs?"
then i tried to explained that i wanted to be unique, different from everybody else.
then he continued "why?! you are so strange!"
and he took a scissors and cut my paper girl's hair.
i was like WTF but i still smiled uhhs
i didnt want to be considered sensitive mah
then jason asked Joi to see mt paper girl.
then Joi was like "Eww! why the heart outside of the shirt one?"
and she took the scissors and cut my paper girl's heart in to half.
the seniors joined in the 'fun' too.

by then, i was like SUPERR sad + SUPERR angry
i didnt want to show because again, i didnt want to be seen as sensitive
then it was the girl-next-to-me's turn to talk
then, it the same. everybody started critizising and cutting up the paper persons
i as like sitting there beside Khalida, confused.
i kept quiet throughout the talking-about-their-paper-persons session
the worst part was, the people after me also contributed to the critizising and cutting
didnt they feel insulted or embarrassed? i know i did.
then, after everybody settled down, we looked at each other's paper persons.
i was stil sat beside Khalida, holding and staring down at mine quietly
we didnt talk, ever since Jason cut my paper person
then, Jason asked how did i feel.
then suddenly, i stated crying uhhs.
i just couldn't take it. it was just too much.
then i heard Jason said "Joi, go to her. She's gonna cry."

then Joi was like beside me giving me tissues
everybody was like so quiet. staring at me cry.
i know, embarrassing. but i couldn't help it.
then, after awhile, i stopped.
Jason then asked again, how did i feel.
i said, I felt sad because my paper person was cut but the rest (before me) was not.
then everybody critisized my drawing and damaged my paper person. i feel insulted and not respected.
then i started crying again.
Jason then explained the whole meaning behind the activity
he said that, words can hurt.
and we must watch what we say to people.
some people are favourited but some are left alone by themselves
a lot of people can make us feel this way. teachers, friends, sibling, parents.
we must know how to phrase our sentence to make it less meaner and to show we care.
like instead of "EWWW! stop biting your fingernails larh! why you so disgusting one! EWW!"
we can say "i would be glad if you would stop biting your nails. it is very unhygienic."
it makes a lot of difference. a lot.

then Jason said, that making our words nicer is very important
then he asked everybody to take a piece of tape
and fixed back each other's paper person with comforting and nicer words
when they were all buys doing that, Jason came and talked to me.
yeah, khalida was still beside me.
he said that he was sorry if he had insulted me.
because he did not mean it.
he can see that this was very personal to me and he uderstands
he actually wanted to choose Justin but he was too near to him.
(he has to build up the paper person activity slowly)
then i said that i knew there was something behind this activity
but it was just too much for me too handle.
then i cried again.

then Jason asked every girl there to hug me.
haha, i know! i got a lot of free hugs today!
then afiq came and tape up my paper person and said that red highlight are cool
then khalida tape up my paper person's heart but i forgot what she said
cuz i started crying again
then i looked a khalida, then she turned away
cuz she said she cannot look at me crying.
I KNOW! Khalida and afiq are like the sweetest friends ever seyy.
then afiq cheered me up with some lame jokes.

then we all played UNO: Jason's version.
when the cards were given out, i realised the deck wasn't shuffled properly
cuz i got 2,2,2,2,2 and a wild draw four.
Cool or what? haha.
then i showed khalida (she beside me)
she wanted to exchange deck
haha, i agreed!
then we played until khalida wanted to switch my 1 with her wild
haha! lucky nobody sees. we so pro!
then got one incident very funny.
affandi put draw two, then huili put draw two, then joi put draw two
then khalida dun hv draw two but i didnt want to let khalida take.
(LOL, 3 draw two, like what seyy!)
so i intercept my draw two with afiq beside me
but i knew afiq got draw two.
so after i put mine, he put his.
and in the end, winston had to take 10 cards total
then we all high-fived each other except winston (haha!)
then khalida said the she wanted to win this (she nvr won b4)
so i tried my best uhh.
then i had 2 cards left. a wild and a number card.
and khalida got only one card left. green
so when it was my turn, i told khalida to get ready
and i put the wild and asked for green
and yeah of course, khalida won!
haha!

then helped cleaned up Studio R
and went home with khalida and afiq
haha, talked about rugby matches, the UNO game, the Bintan ghost experiences, and the Hungry Ghost Festival
i know! we like what seyy, laughing and talking!
haha, ouh yeah today first day HGF.
saw alot of buring jossticks at the grass
lucky got the Uncle neighbour in the lift with me
if not, don't dare go up lift alone
so yeah, im done for today!
quite a lot of rantings seyy, today.
haha, buh-bye!

Monday, August 03, 2009 @ 8/03/2009 09:47:00 PM
ouh yeah, i forgot.

I PASSED MY 2.4KM RUN, BABY!
so yeah, another bronze this year.
if only, my long distance running was better.
Gold could be possible.

hmm, my legs are like still so weak.
ouh yeah, istiana still have to re-take the test.
HAHA! ok i so evil.
good luck on friday, is.

iwan is sick.
fever and cough.
then i have to sleep with him summore.
i dont want get sick.
not until nisa gets better.
cuz later farahin no friend.
i love her for accompanying me
during the 2.4km run although she passed the first time.

ok thats all. =))

@ 8/03/2009 08:10:00 PM
Cute guys are totally impossible not to smile at.

anyways,

i hate the new blogger.com
i hate the new blogger.com
i hate the new blogger.com
i hate the new blogger.com

what is the point of blogging if you cant change the font
or colour or size or insert pictures or video or whatever.
my post will all seem so small.
WTF uhh blogger.com
change never ask comment one.
now, there is not gonna any rainbow-ness in my blog.

so yeah, a lot of very stupid things happened.
the school's NDP is cancelled due to H1N1.
STUPID? i know.
if your afraid of the virus spearding, why do we come to school in the first place?
I know.
Why dont we all just dont get out of our houses and die of boredom?
it's seriously ruining my life.
wait, no. it's ruining everybody's life.
but, maybe there is a reason why this happened.
There always is.

then right, cuz of no NDP training, i had to do DC duty.
which was BORING and RETARDED yet i was forced.
pity istiana, had to wait for me for 1h 30mins.
but we did have fun after that right?
CHOCOLATE OREO BUBBLE TEA ROCKS MY WORLD!

and another thing.
you all think you know so much.
but you actually don't.
i didn't recall blogging any specific name in this blog.
so why do you really think i am saying about whoever you are saying?

it totally makes me sad
that i cant actually blog what i really feel here
without anyone saying things behind my back
and then you go around spreading the rumour
which is STUPID and COWARDLY of you

if you cant respect my privacy,
then i don't know if i can trust you anymore.
wait, i dont even reacall trusting you before.
and who do you think you are?
you think you're so awesome that i should afraid?
you thought wrong, dude.
you thought way, wrong.

so if you ever dare to come up to me
and say things that are totally wrong
you better be ready. you better.

ok im done with all this crap.
hmmm, ouh yeah,
today is Seri's 13th birthday!
so yeah! hope you like the present istiana and i gave you!
im done for today's rantings.
buh-bye.