There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna have an uphill battle. Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waiting on the other side. It's


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I should be sleeping.
Thursday, October 28, 2010 @ 10/28/2010 02:50:00 AM

Oh, life.

I have just finish the proposal. Ugh.
I am super sleepy but I want to blog.
I need to say that I am really confused and I do not know who to turn to.
I have told my parents but there is only so much they could do.
I am extremely worried. Really.
About life. About my future. About my well-beling.
Everything.
I need to get a grip on my life. But I don't know how to.
I don't know how much I can hold on.
I just don't know what to do.

Tomorrow is the last day of school. And tomorrow is the day when the get our report book. And also whether we retain or not. Well, I obviously am going to retain. And Mum and Dad will have to go to the parents-teacher meeting on Saturday. I just don't want to be retained. Please. My Mum said, "Those successful people before faced many more failures than you did. You cannot just give up just because of a Secondary 3 EOY." I feel like crying then. But I didn't.

I need comfort. I need somebody to be wtih me. I need somebody to tell me everything's going to be okay eventhough you are not sure. I need reasurrance. I need people to stop judging me. I need people to stop comparing.
I need love.

Thank you very much.
Though I know I will never get it.
It hurts to know that. It really does.
But, I will never know what to do about it.
I don't know what to do.