There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna have an uphill battle. Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waiting on the other side. It's


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Patience Is Tested To The Core.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010 @ 10/12/2010 08:33:00 PM

End Of Year Examminations Week
aka The Week Of Pure Torture
Or a way to gauge how much have you learnt this year.

I bet most of you would go for the second one, haha.

Here's my timetable:
Monday - Social Studies & Pure Biology
Tuesday - Additional Mathematics
Wednesday - History & Elementary Mathematics Paper 2
Thursday - Elementary Mathematics Paper 1 & Pure Chemistry
Friday - Pure Physics

I am supposed to be studying for History but nooooo. Frankly, some part of me is not worried. Not because I am confident of getting high results. But because I don't seem to care what results I get anymore. I am so used to failing so much that it doesn't affect my moral being anymore. I used to be the person who would not settle for a pass. But now, things have changed. Getting a pass is almost impossible for anything. But I am terrified of retaining, though. I cannot seem to get a grip of my life. Everybody is telling me what to do. Once I have made up my mind, somebody comes up and tell me my decision is not the best. I don't know what to think anymore. I used to know what my future is. Now, things are all in a mess and a blur. I am taking each day as it goes by, not really realising the mistakes I will make along the way.  Once I realised, the damage is already done and I cannot turn back time. I just wish time will just slow down.

Today, I went back home (yes, by walking all the way) from Amaths. Maximum marks is 34/100. But this is already quite high for my standards. So yeah. After eating lunch, I slept all the until 6.30pm. So, I am going to sleep super duper late today. Kinda good because I have to study for history anyways. So yeah. Okay, I have nothing else. You guys better run along and carry on with your life. Because 2mins of it have just been wasted by reading this post.



"I realised I may not have the looks. I may not have the talent. And, I may not have the brains. But I have my whole heart to offer to you. And if you don't think that is enough for you, I guess it is better this way. Though, I know this sacrifice hurts me inside more than it does to you."