There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna have an uphill battle. Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waiting on the other side. It's


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Perfect Excuse.
Monday, October 04, 2010 @ 10/04/2010 11:03:00 PM
Go away if you think I deserve him.
Because I definately don't.

She can deal with stress and carry heavy burdens. She smiles when she feels like screaming and she sings when she feels like crying. She cries when she's happy and laughs when she's afraid. Her love is unconditional. There is only one thing wrong with her.

She forgets what she's worth.

This thing is so..sigh. I feel so down lately. And you know, I have found a new habit. I would walk home all the way from school when I feel like being alone. Buses are becoming too crowded lately. I need my space and lately, most of the time. I do not know why but walking seems to be so nice. And really, my hatred for walking is gone. I am not forcing myself to walk because to slim down or something. But, really. I am surprise at myself too. Huh, weird much. But I have always known that I could walk the whole way. Just didn't know I had the patience. Walking helps me to think, I think. And lately, I have been thinking about somethings.

I don't know what to feel anymore. I don't want to be a disturbance in somebody's love. He seems happy with her and it is obvious she likes him. Maybe this is really the right thing to do. Besides, she saw him first. He doesn't seem to be affected at all. In a way, I am happy for him to be moving on fast. Maybe a little bit too fast. But, he deserves somebody better. Somebody other than me. Oh well, what was I thinking anyway. I can't face him anymore. It just makes me want to cry. But, I want to see him. Cause I like the way my stomach flutters.

Somebody who cries is not weak. They have just been strong for too long.