My soulless, ranting heart.
Friday, February 04, 2011 @ 2/04/2011 04:35:00 PM
Okay, firstly, I am still using the iphone because Iwan is using mum's laptop. So, bear with me a little for me horrible typing. Thank you very much. Anyways, the point of me blogging is not to update on anything. Besides, it's too soon to update. It was just yesterday, mann. My life isn't that interesting anyway. So yeahh. Okay back to the point. I am bloggong because really, I am not that happy. I do not know with what. But I know I am just so not ... I don't know. I am not even sure if happy is the right word to use. But, oh well. A lot has been going on lately. And soon, I have a feeling it is going to be over. Or maybe not. Maybe this is a 16 thing, you know? Turning 16 is a huge step for somebody's life. Or maybe I am just paranoid. Or maybe it is the fact that I am turning 16 but I am still the same old me. Useless and unwanted me. God, yes I am paranoid. Or maybe not. Omggg, I don't know. I am just clinging to life as hard as I can to get through each and every possible day. For the impossible ones, well, let's just say I pray as hard as I can. God, I am praying for a good day on the 6th of February, please. And also on the 7th, for which my 16 year old body goes to school for the first time. Thank God that I have the long weekend to prepare for this. I really need time to think this through. About what? Frankly, I have no idea. Or maybe, I'll fall sick and do not need to go to school. That's a great idea, if your on MARS or 'O' Levels doesn't exist. Sheesh. Oh, I am hungry and I want to eat. Blog again tomorrow, that is if I can survive the rest of the day. Love you people. Spread peace and love because there is someone out there who needs it badly. ♥

Update? Okay can. Okay can.
Thursday, February 03, 2011 @ 2/03/2011 08:26:00 PM
Omg. 6 December to 4 February. Two more days and it will be exacty two months of this blog's not so tragic death. But Sofia is here to save the day, as always. And please excuse my horrible typing because I am updating with my brother's iPhone. Yes, that is one of the changes in my life. So this phone is not yet updated and thus, I am not able to blog using the compose mode. Ugh, suckish font mann. But oh well. Okay, let's start where we left off.

Oh, I am checking my phone calendar for the pat events that happened. So yeahh. Iwan came back to Singapore on the 10 of December. He and his choir team got silver in the something winter festival in Hong Kong. Thus, the trip during December. Then, I had my first lesson of the Jurong class. Pretty interesting. Then, the NCDCC HK trip presentation to the HQ people. Oh, I had better days. Then, big brother passed out from CLT course alive in one piece with Max and Winston. So, big congratulations to them all and the rest of the new CLTs. Oh, school holidays is over. So, back to school. First week is orientation week for the new Secondary 1s in Evergreen sec. CCA Excos, Prefect Excos and the prefect worked together to make he orientation week a success. So, well done. Then, there were the polythecnic open houses. Nadd, Istiana and I went to Ngee Ann poly only on 8 Jan, I think. So much fun, oh, and free stuffs. ;D after the open house, we went to the HTCC parade where NCDCC and NPCC made it successful. We went to support the UDIs and CLTs. So, yeahh, congrats. Then, it was just school and NCDCC. until the charity bazaar preparation. So busy busy until 2 February when the CNY celebration was in a form of the bazaar, and I didnt get to go around the bazaar because nobody wanted to do the games booth. So, thank you very much. But, there will be another charity bazaar for the Sec 2s and this time, I am truly going shopping full speed. Alone or not. So, thats all in the calendar.

Other update will be like, I dropped Amaths, I have a new maths, chem, english, social studies, PE and form teacher respectivey. Oh, talkng about teahers. Mrs Eng came to the charity bazaar that day. Omg, freaking miss her can ? When I saw her I practically ran up to her and hug her. Oh, and the first thing she said to me was, "Have you been very naughty, Sofia?" Haha, no cher, I have not. Oh, then she commented that I look thin. Healthy thin. My mum disagrees. She says I look sickly thin. Haha, you know what? Both of them are wrong. Because I am fat. Peace yo. Haha. Then, there are the relationship updates. He loves her, she loves anither him. Then hate. Then fight. Then stead. Haiyooo, no point knowing, I tell ya. Oh and yours truly is still the sigle loner unwanted fat girl. And proud of it. Oh, went shopping at Bugis after the charity bazaar with Nisa nad Nadd. God, fell so guilty and excited at the same time. Bought a lot of stuffs that I really adore. So I am more to the excited part. Haha! So yeah. Will show if I have the time and not so much laziness. Okay can.

Ohh, do you know Bancho the Mat Rep? Youtuber that is so funny. And apparently quite the typical singaporean mat rep. Minus the smoking and hate for other people. Haha, I admit, I had fun watching his videos. Oh, he has subtitles too. See? Very lovable. But it doesnt work on me. So, too bad. Though, I love laughing. So, that is why I adpre watching his videos. Very real, honest and funny. You guys should check him out kkay?
Okay, I want to stop because this iphone is really getting on my merves. Maybe next time I will try begging my mum to use her laptop. Super frustrating to type using the iphone. Like Nisa said, I dont follow trends cause my liking is extremely different from other people. Oh, she said I am special. Haha, thanks babe for realising that. I think I follow my emotions and not what other people think, I guess. So yeah, people, be observant of what I buy next time to know how I truly feel. Okay, Sofia macam paham. Kay, I love everyone who loves me. And for those who hates me, I still love you and I hope you will love me too. Okay then, I think I am done. Will update soon as i can. Keep smiling and look forward to the future.

Omg, why am I so weird like this? Ugh, gotta stop. Kay peace out yo.